Scan Date Set

We now know the date for Steves scan, which is the 2nd October. Steve will go up to St Barts on the morning of the 2nd and have his scan. He wont get the results until the 8th October as this is when Tom runs his clinic and he wants to get his kidney cancer specialists looking at the scans before we get the results. Of all of the dates for them to be, it is ironic that the scan is the day after Megs birthday and the results are 2 days before my birthday. So my birthday will either be a great celebration or a time to drown our sorrows!

We are trying desperately not to focus on the date nor whether its worked or not but instead enjoy the time we have.

Which is one of the reasons why I haven't been writing on the blog. The other reason being that Im back to work full time! Its about trying to be normal!

Well as best as we can be normal! Its been pretty easy to get back into the swing of things, all be it very tiring!. But silly things remind us both of the cancer. Hearing the news about Patrick Swazy really upset me, not because I was a huge fan, though I wont deny having spent a very enjoyable evening dancing to "Ive had the time of my life...." but wont be going into the details of that on such a public site! but more to do with the fact that he was a youngish fit man whos life was ended through cancer. It brings back all of the fear and worry that both Steve and I have.

Steve is doing so well, its almost as though the time in hospital happened months ago not just a few weeks ago. He still gets very tired and at times gets frustrated that he cant do more but then he has always been hard on himself!

On Sunday we went off to Hampton Court for the day land hired a couple of rowing boats. Dudley even seemed to enjoy it!

I am of to New York next week with work, I am worrying about how he will be! Steve thinks Im mad!! As "I will be fine!!!" is what he keeps on telling me and Im sure he will be. That doesnt stop me from worrying though, as this will be the first time Ive been away since he was diagnosed and whilst Im sure he is looking forward to a bit of peace and quiet! I am beginning to feel anxious about it all. Megs on the other hand is most excited about it all and has already given me a list of the clothes from Abercrombie and Fitch and Victoria Secrets, all of which she is hoping to get for her birthday!

Thank you for all of the lovely comments and look forward to catching up with people soon.